So I Just Gave My Presentation...

And I'm really sorry if it was super awkward.  Anxious lately.  I feel like my blog is a tad angsty but mind-vomit is the only way I can journal. I have to ramble or else I let myself remember that other people can read these and I'll start editing my opinions to sound smarter for the sake of appearance and worrying about what people think of them and it won't be a true representation of what I think.  So I apologize now for the conversational, familiar tone, it just makes things a lot easier.
I'm quite ramble-y and these notes were not really done in any sort of cohesive or linear fashion. Also, my animation I was planning for my presentation won't turn up how I want it to and I've hit a wall.  Debating scrapping it, which is massively frustrating.  It just doesn't capture anything that I wanted it to, with the complexities of the broken vessels and broken humanity...soul healing, etc.  I'm surprised at how much this class has gotten me thinking about souls.  Also, in Dr. Morgan's class, while talking about His Dark Materials-(see Kirra's blog for an in depth analysis) and the shaping of the souls, etc. throughout the series, we simultaneously brought up daemons in this class and I got to thinking about coincidences again.  Really great series though.  Definitely worth the discussions.

Doctor Who

So, while creepin' on Anna's blog a bit ago, I saw she posted a Doctor Who thing and I was pretty happy about it, because that show has made me think of this class about a thousand times now. Completely applicable, in pretty much every way possible.

Mostly because: "You want weapons? We're in a library! Books! The best weapons in the world!"
See the Dillard post, we must not let our minds go slack. And how best to keep them sharp? Books!

Present-Ally-Edit: After watching the 50th Anniversary special, I hold this to be even more true.  The idea of summoning each and every one of your incarnations throughout time to fix an event that, to some of your incarnations is the past, and to some is the future...the idea of reshaping your own timeline somehow...sounds like it'd fit in this class if we had a little more time.

P.S. There are .gifs I could post to demonstrate this, but I can't find any at the moment.

Dillard

Interesting concept, but not my favorite.  Though I'm relatively captivated by the thought of the sheer number of dead people there are in relation to the ~7,000,000 alive on earth.  Makes me feel small and insignificant but also a part of something huge.  Her section, Numbers, was the most telling to me, making it concrete and real and so utterly massive.  It's sad, it's not a fun read by any means, but it fits the head space that I've been living in.  Though, that might not necessarily be a good thing.  Lots of melancholy books for a melancholy girl.  Whoops.

"But our minds must not go slack. How can we think straight if our minds go slack?"  That is the question indeed, Ms. Dillard, that is the question.  How do we end this cycle of our minds going slack once they are there? To answer the question, our minds would have to be sharper than slack, and thus we couldn't solve the problem.  I guess we could, just slower...not sure though, because my mind has gone slack.  The first step is admitting you have a problem, right?

I realize I keep just posting walls of text and not splitting them into paragraphs...Sorry! Typing these up from handwritten notes full of doodles and things, they're not the most organized of thoughts, but then, mine never are.

Dreams and things:

I know we were always supposed to be writing down dreams, but I don't ever remember mine unless they're particularly unpleasant, and I partly don't want to burden whoever's reading this with them and partly don't want to think about what they mean, as the inner workings of my head.  Maybe I'll get there later. I'm not sure.

How can you say that your truth is better than ours?

Or, a commentary on aggressive apathy.

"If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won..."

This.  This has been stuck in my head for ages and it's the set of words bouncing around my head all the time.  This semester would've gone spectacularly if I hadn't spent the whole time practicing a wonderful skill of not caring about anything.  I need a hobby, in other news.  It's just cold and grey but there's no snow yet and I care about tea and hiding in books than I do much else.
We were reading On Faerie Stories in Dr. Morgan's class, and talking about how faerie isn't an escape.  She can say all she wants that it's not, but my books are for me.  Oh well.

I'm just randomly searching through my planner/journal, sorry everything's out of order!

Because here are my Magus questions!

What happened to Mitford?
At one point, Conchis says to Nicholas, "All good science is art. And all good art is science." How can this line be related as significant throughout the rest of the novel?
Why did Nicholas slap Alison?
What is so irresistible about Alison?
Why the game?

Sarah Kay - If I Should Have a Daughter

This really doesn't pertain to this class, but my mom sent this to me and I thought it was a lovely sentiment in terms of regaining some positivity.  Good thinking points.